Thoughts

I am discovering so much about myself before this trip to Ireland.  Moments of doubt hit me when I realized that I can not do all this by myself. I even had sudden fears of going overseas by myself and wondering if I can actually do it. I truly have to rely on Papa for the finances and for resources to get there. I almost freaked out.  I saw my paycheck and it was less than what I thought, however, I am going to keep moving forward. I haven't even paid for my ticket yet to get to Ireland and my concern is that prices will go up. But I believe two things will either happen, either God will keep the prices lower for me or He will go above and beyond financially to provide the money for the ticket. He will not leave me hanging.

Another thing I discovered is that faith isn't about an emotion. I've had moments where I felt like I had the faith to go to Ireland and other days I don't. But faith is about knowing to go forth anyway even when you do not feel like it. Feelings come and go but Papa is consistent in who He is and what He believes about me so therefore I am resting in what He says and not what my emotions tell me. Nor can I allow my outer circumstances to gage if things are going well or not. I get to follow His soothing peace in this wonderful journey and that is what I am going to do.

Being Adventure

I read a quote by Andre Rabe from his book called, "Imagine".  (If you haven't read this book, I highly recommend it) 
He quoted in the book, "Forget about trying to find His plan for your life---your life is His plan! Neither your location or your timing matters---He has dawned His eternal day. You are His moment; you are His location!"

I read this quote and was blown away. I realized how I've always been unsatisfied with where I am with life, whether it was the job, or my location, or  my status, or whatever. It was always something. So I always was searching outside myself to feel the excitement of adventure. And of course we do need that time to time however, I am discovering to live by carelessly in that mode for the next adventure--you never truly appreciate the now that is present. 

Papa God told me yesterday: "You are the adventure! Me, living life in your extraordinary unique and brilliant expression is one of My greatest pleasures and joys!"  Living waters of life flow through me therefore wherever I am I bring life, I bring the adventure because I AM adventure simply because HE IS. There is nothing boring or mundane about Jesus one bit because He is the light of brilliance wherever He is...as He is so I am.

Unknowns...

July is half way over and I still have no funds for this trip I am planning. I have sent a few letters but have not heard anything or received any responds.  I do not have the ticket or the place I will stay booked yet. So I have no idea how this is going to happen. Of course, God is the only way this is going to happen.

I've even done an projected budget for the amount of money I can save up and it looks like I can do it. For a person who likes to plan things ahead of time I'm truly trusting God for the outcome of this. I am still excited and I am going forth with this trip. Thank you Jesus this is why this is called adventure.