I am discovering so much about myself before this trip to Ireland. Moments of doubt hit me when I realized that I can not do all this by myself. I even had sudden fears of going overseas by myself and wondering if I can actually do it. I truly have to rely on Papa for the finances and for resources to get there. I almost freaked out. I saw my paycheck and it was less than what I thought, however, I am going to keep moving forward. I haven't even paid for my ticket yet to get to Ireland and my concern is that prices will go up. But I believe two things will either happen, either God will keep the prices lower for me or He will go above and beyond financially to provide the money for the ticket. He will not leave me hanging.
Another thing I discovered is that faith isn't about an emotion. I've had moments where I felt like I had the faith to go to Ireland and other days I don't. But faith is about knowing to go forth anyway even when you do not feel like it. Feelings come and go but Papa is consistent in who He is and what He believes about me so therefore I am resting in what He says and not what my emotions tell me. Nor can I allow my outer circumstances to gage if things are going well or not. I get to follow His soothing peace in this wonderful journey and that is what I am going to do.
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